Recently, I have been dealing with a situation that shook me to my core. At times, it has left me angry, depressed, overwhelmed, hopeless, resentful, tired, confused-pretty much every negative emotion you can think of. If I am really honest, there were days that I have laid in bed praying for God to take me out of this world, because that would be so much better than dealing with this pain.
I have already overcome so much in my life that I have faced with strength and faith. I am in no way a perfect person, but I have tried to live with intention and obedience to God. I certainly wouldn’t dare to know more than God, but I had some questions:
Why would you allow this to happen?
Haven’t I been through enough?
Am I being punished?
Do I not deserve to be happy?
Do you not love me?
I wanted God to set me free, one way or another because I very much felt like a prisoner of my circumstances. One night, as I prayed, begging Him to relieve me from this situation, I felt Him say to me, “Life is short, but eternity is forever. Your happiness isn’t the priority. You have all of eternity to be happy. I have a purpose for you. I have a purpose for your pain. I didn’t cause it, but I allowed it because I can use it. I love you, but there are other people I love that I want you to help. This life is short, but eternity is forever.”
When I woke up the next morning, it was still in the forefront of my mind what God had spoken to me the night before. The first verse I read that morning was Psalm 90:12, “So teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.” God taught me to do just that.
This life with all of its pain and problems is just a hiccup in comparison with eternity. Revelation 21:4 says, “And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.” And Romans 8:18 says, “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that is to be revealed to us.” I had a decision before me: to either pursue what I think will make me happy, or to obey God and pursue purpose.
I have chosen to obey God. To not view my circumstances as a trap, but rather as training for what lies ahead of me. The moment I chose the difficult road of obedience, I felt peace. A peace that I had wanted and needed so desperately, more than happiness.
Have you found yourself in the middle of a situation beyond your control? Are you feeling hopeless? Helpless? Trapped? I challenge you to bring it to God. Lay it down before Him and allow Him to show you what He can do in even the most desperate of circumstances. Philippians 4:6-7 says, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. “